Oh, what a relief!

So, it seems like my thesis is going to be awesome. And the reason for that is that I'm going to put in an extra half chapter (or whole chapter) that will bind it all together - something I'd totally forgotten about (not the binding it all together part, that was totally on my mind, but the how to accomplish said binding - that was a bit elusive to me as I was finishing my "last" chapter on Tuesday - and it was really so simple, starting to occur to me as I handed over the chapter to my supervisor, and feeling a bit bad about its (the chapter's) inabilities to accomplish the binding on its own.

Lol. In other words, there are some parts missing, that have to be done (and when they are, the thesis will look great!)  Which is ok, I know how, but it'll take somewhat more time than 3 days… In other words, my deadline is going to be moved, and I will work on this for a little bit longer (a bit ~ a month or max two). Am I disappointed? I'm sure my poor supervisor thought I'd be… (she didn't really suggest this to me, we had a great meeting discussing it all, and it felt nice to be able to look at the thing clearly, in perspective). But no! Actually not disappointed at all! I'm just very relieved!! It's been good working 13 hours a day - I've accomplished a lot. But, after 2.5 weeks of this, I'm quite exhausted. Indeed, even this morning, I had a really hard time dragging myself into activity. But my relief is more about knowing that the job will not be mediocre, and that I will be able to continue the way I've started.

These weeks have been very enlightening - I've forced myself to really work in a highly disciplined manner. I've learnt loads, which has felt wonderful. Not only about the topic, but how to fight the anguish, and be structured. That's how I fought it - anguish arrives when seeing too much at once. Then structuring it up, forming a plan, dividing into manageable pieces, and just take one at a time and keep at it, is the way to go. Prayer is an indispensable ingredient in this process...
I am not going to continue on the 13 hr schedule though… I'll aim for 10 hrs/day instead :) 8 - 18 should be good.

There's another benefit with this scenario: I don't have to be working here. I can be somewhere else, say… Toronto?

Happy.